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Daylight savings, my ass

November 7, 2010

5:47 a.m. and I am awake. Even Tylenol PM has been forbidden me. Damn you, racing brain — if it is, in fact, you who keeps awakening me!

Normally, Daylight Savings would mean an extra hour to sleep. This year, it’s just one more hour to be awake. My kingdom for an Ambien!

Weekday posts are getting harder to come by, mainly because I wake up at 4 a.m. and stare at the ceiling, trying to will myself back to sleep. By the time I get home from work, it’s all I can do to put a little food in my body and keep up with the meds before crawling back to bed. Yes, they talk about pregnancy exhaustion, but in this situation, it may be the pregnancy insomnia. If anyone has a kid they need nursed in the middle of the night, drop ‘er off. I’m up anyway.

Meanwhile, I await the next milestone — 10 days ‘til the first ultrasound. It’s a little nerve-wracking. One meal, I forget and order feta on my shwarma. Crap. I hope my baby doesn’t die for the sake of a little Israeli food. Then I pick up my laptop and feel a twinge on my right side — I didn’t rupture anything, did I?

It is ridiculous how obsesssed I become with my body — not how it looks, but how it feels. And how guilty I feel at work when I have to ask a colleague to lift something heavy for me.

Fancy Schmancy Fertility Clinic assigned me a new nurse this week, after the second one quit (I don’t think it was because of me). The new nurse actually has an e-mail account with her own name on it, rather than an anonymous group account. This feels like so much individualized attention I could send her roses.

6 a.m. Must get more sleep.

2 Comments leave one →
  1. Kristy permalink
    November 7, 2010 7:10 am

    Pregnancy is just the beginning of a decade with very little sleep.

  2. Lauren permalink
    November 11, 2010 9:25 pm

    Feta is fine, darling. Hope you’re feeling good and can’t wait to hear how the ultrasound goes!

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